Laughs Out Loud

i srsly hv no clue whts with me. i keep thinking abt tht one single thing 24x7. i knw my priorities. i knw wht do i want . i knw how i m goin to achieve it. bt then why m i facing so many problems in focusing on my aim??
first trimester results are out and i hv done pretty well. but still, i hv a lot of scope to excell. gettin good grades is nt enuff in a b-school. wht is important is learning ( i think thts my fave word after LOL).and i think i m getting distracted from my goal of learnin smthg frm every second spent in this insti.

But then , i think thts life. learning is, after all, not only related to studies. learning from real life relationships is smthg thts gonna make me more mature n mellow me down( yeah i srsly believe tht i m really immature in comparison to these ppl). managing people is one competency tht a manager ought to have. being thousands of miles away frm ur home, with different ppl frm different places n different ( read shocking ) attitudes teaches u smthg every moment. all u need to do is be attentive and aware of whts happening around u.
ppl r playing mindgames everywhr and my task is to observe them, most preferably without being a part of them.

The word ''friend''....ohh...it is a magical word. i never knew it can be so much fun to be a part of a grp of 9 ppl. i hv always been in a peer grp of not more than 4 ppl( thts the way i m ). we chat, we study, we fight, we watch movies, we gossip, we discuss problems n likes n dislikes, boyfriends n girlfriends n most of the times keep clicking photographs, SMSing and teasing everyone with each other. gossiping abt the dean n the president and THE MALLU COMMUNITY of our institute, Cursing the mess food n fuming n frettin abt the presentations next morning when its 2 a.m. already.
but hey if u guys thinkin tht its all about fun then ...oops baby u r absolutelyt WRONG...as thr can be some serious side affects as well.
lol...lemme explain this to u with the help of an example. i will take the recent one. i m friends with a lot of ppl in my insti....oh ...n i never knew tht being friends with everyone can give birth to such a serious issues, esp on instances like ur BIRTHDAY. i wanted to invite only 8 out of 21 on the very day . i had decided to throw a separate party fr everyone else a day after. bt it caused some serious issues and ...lol...as a result , i m still sorting out the matters.
but , neways, its fun to fight with ppl on such petty issues( yeah..yeah..i can be a bit inhuman at times), atleast it lets u knw tht thr r so many ppl expecting smthg frm u as a fren.

okies okies......i m back to b'lore after my 10 days holidaysss...ohhh it ws so amazing being at home. amazing food ...moma daddy ...sis aahhhh....n tht ws fr the first time i realised tht life is simple at home. i dont hv to get up early in the morning, no restrictrions fr food timings, dont hv to run to the MDP block fr classes, no need to wear formals everyday, no need to read newspapers...u can speak whtvr u feel like without even thinkin tht this person might tell that to everyone.
no warden, no President, no Director adn no Dean. no exams n ...lol...no results. no ppt ..no quizzes.

but ...then ....on the other hand, .....at home there are no friends, no late nites, no freshers' parties, no music concerts, no events, no competition( i cant imagine ,my life without CGPAs nemore), no fun with seniors and not tht much freedom. ( lol...i remember ....how i hd gone to the commercial street, which is like ''FAR FAR AWAY'' frm our hostel ,all on my own without even knowing any roads or nethg in Bangalore).

i think i love this place ....the feeling of being responsible fr urself gives me amazing happiness. feeling of being accountable to each n every act i do makes me feel like a grown up ...smthg tht i never feel when i m home with my family whr they still treat me as a 16 year old kid. ( in case u dont knw ..i hv jz turned 21 on this 12th of october....!!!)

hmmm...so i think life is good.....