Well...life is good. Actually , not really. I have exams in two days.
Anyways, something really weird happened to me yesterday. I was feeling very relaxed after scoring good in last semester (Believe me, it is quite relaxing to see that you have got a decent CGPA). But then, i dont know why something stupid happened and my roommate picked up a fight with me (I still believe that it was her fault). As a result, I really lost my temper and started yelling at her like anything. I generally dont do that but since she was a close friend and she did something so disgusting like that I just cud not help shouting at her.
Anyways, after like 10 minutes of that stupid fight I left the room and went to the common room. Just 3 ppl were thr at that time and the moment i entered they looked at me as if i had taken away their birth rights from them. I said nothing and started reading my book.
Its only just hours ago that i came to know that i was yelling so loudly that the whole college heard me shouting at my roomie. It was 3 in the afternoon and many ppl cud hear me in the canteen and the common room.
And that explains the look at the faces of ppl present in the common room that time..." Here comes the psycho of the college".
Ohhh..no..
God!!!
Lol…It’s funny! I was talking to the love of my life (read: boyfriend) on the phone, asking whether he read my previous post on the blog. He dint reply but told me to meet over dinner. Later, when I asked him again, he was like, ‘’ that was pathetic, ……(my name)…. What did you mean by those lines about…no mom and dad, no boyfriend…do you find it that suffocating with me? Well, I never knew. I am not asking you to change anything in that post but I m sure anybody who would read that blog would think that the blogger is really despo.’’
I kept smiling all the time as I dint know what to say.
Whatever!!
Well......I m posting after a lot of days. A lot has happened in this period. I Had my first industry experience. Have recently finished my two months summer project with an IT firm in Bangalore. Aah.. It was a lot of fun. Though they made me work really hard for the project giving a little stipend, the learning was great. Although I was working hard in the company I was amazingly happy. Although I was a thousand kms away from the love of my life for almost three months I was amazingly happy. The place where I was staying was actually a pigeonhole and I was paying a fortune for it ( huh...i hate Bangalore for being so so so oooo expensive a city).I was not really in touch with my college friends as we all were really busy with our summer projects. I was spending much more than I was earning. I was spending money like anything. Like never before ( which was one of my ..no..no ...infact my only concern during summers). And despite of all this happening to me...i was happy ..amazingly happy. At that time, I did not know why. I thought probably because after a lot of time, working pressure was very low. In an MBA institute you work day in day out. You have projects, assignments, mid trimesters, end trimesters, competitions, functions, what not. And on the top of that, when you find it hard to take out time for even yourself, you fall in love which makes you even busier. And thats why I thought that less pressure during summers was the reason why I was so happy. There, all I had to do was to leave for the office at 8.00 am and come back by 8.30 pm. And after that I was free to do whatever I felt like (however, then you dont have suitable time to do anything.). Anyways, I felt great to have a sleep of almost 7 hours and have fun with the roommates the rest of the time. ...My roommates...oh..I was seriously scared before moving to that PG place. I thought I wont be having anyone to talk to as I dint know anyone there and I m not one of the friendliest people one might know. And that was why I had taken 7 novels with me when I was moving in. But then.... ....I met these two girls there. Believe me, they are two of the best friends I have had in my life. The three of us enjoyed three months like anything. We all had Sundays off and that was the best part of summers. We explored whole Bangalore, we would go to malls, we would go for movies, to shop on streets, everywhere. We had also planned to go to a pub but then thought of scrapping the whole plan as we realized that it wasnt very safe to visit a pub without being in a big group. Anyways, we used to do make up together, used to buy trendy clothes and then to go shopping again wearing those trendy clothes. I thought that those were the days of my life. I thought may be because of the two of them I was so happy. But, its actually after coming back to hostel I have realized why I was so happy. There was just one thing about it. FREEDOM..!!! For the first time in 21 years of my life, I was staying on my own. No matter how much but I was earning on my own. I had no one to stop me from doing anything. I had no warden, no mom and dad, no boyfriend and no college friends there. I could do whatever I felt like. There was no one to tell me what was good and what was bad for me. I was all my own. Lol..and..being a marketing intern I was getting paid for roaming all around in Bangalore!! It was this feeling of freedom that made me amazingly happy during my summers. Well, all good things come to an end and so did this one. I am back to hostel with lots of projects, assignments, mid trimesters, end trimesters, competitions, functions, what not. In fact I am writing this blog and right before two hours from an SCM test. But hey that has not killed my happiness. I am excited that in less than 12 months I will finish this course and then I will be out in the free world, all again....!!!...who knows if miss my college days then..!
u knw wht? the guy i was talking abt in the previous post??? oh i just hate him now. he is so silly .........he says he hates me. and well acchha hai. i hate him too. poora Lallu hai. God only knows wht does he think of himself.
he he ..... now happy?
oh i had read abt it in books, had seen it in the movies and had heard about it from friends. but never in my life had i imagined tht the charm of the first kiss cud be so amazing...!!!!!!! my first kiss.
it has been a over a month, but its as fresh in my memory as if it had happened just an hour ago. it was totally unplanned....it happened all of a sudden...neither of us were expecting tht. i still remember how i was teasing him about something and how he had started kissing on my cheek, then my neck, my collar bone, my forehead, my nose and then he had put his lips on that of mine. he started touching my lips with his lips. then he kissed my lips. he was kissing me. and then i realized tht i was kissing him too. we went deeper n deeper. one two three four. we kissed four times in a row in a span of one hour. i cud not hear anything. i cud not see nethg as my eyes were closed. i cud not hear anything. i had stopped talking (obviously), and was doin nothing but just enjoying each and every moment of it.
well then i broke the silence and hence the series of our kisses.
''we are making out'' i said ..lol...as if he dint know. he gave me a loving smile and simply said ''yes''......and he continued.
i was happy. it was my first kiss. lol.. i still remember that how i had always been so apprehensive about it. wht if i dint do it right? wht if i turned him off? such stupid but scary thoughts would never leave my mind whenever i used to think abt it.
but with him, it was so simple and natural. i dint have to do anything. it all just came to me as if i was a pro in kissing. well i must not forget to say that he is a wonderful kisser. his first kiss was sweet and soft. but he was a bit faster during the second one. totally passionate in the next and the last kiss had you-are-mine kinda feel in it.
lol....we celebrated our first kiss followed by a whole KISSING WEEK, trying thousands of new techniques to kiss. the dude is a hero when it comes to kissing i must say.
i m lucky!!
okay, so thts how it goes. out of 45 applications, i was one of the four candidates who hd got shortlisted for the final interview. (yippie...!!!)
the interview ws important fr me as my boyfriend had also been shortlisted. nothing could be like that if we both gt selected. (yippie...!!!)
during the interview i was all set and gave my best shot. the interviewer kept saying ...''good ..interesting...hmm..the previous candidate just cud not answer this question...good...!! '' i thought things were going fine. (yippie...!!!) after the interview, me n my boy started planning for our next two months in bombay..!! (yippie...!!!)
a day later when i asked him ...
''hey yaar what happened to the results..when will they let us know? ''
he asked me in amazement....'' dont temme u dont knw...are u kidding....''
OOPS...!!!
''okay now plz temme what happened ? who all hv got sleected?''
''umm...''
''bata bhi ...kya problem hai....i dint get thru?''
''well....'' (LONG PAUSE).''........they hv selected all of us except YOU.''
ohh ..uh..oh..!!!
i realized that it was my turn to take a LONG PAUSE...
''its ok no probs re...smthg bigger is waiting for u baby!''
i still dont understand why on earth he dint choose me. he could have taken all four of us but he dropped me..why? i wont have been feeling so restless had i knew wht went wrong. well...my boyfriend says ...
''stop whining over it dumbo..ok bab i 'll ask him y he dint select you in case i meet him later. happy....??''
yeah right..!!!
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