Laughs Out Loud

Its a wonderful novel. I just stumbled upon the movie one day. And I found it very comforting. I dont know why but off late I feel very attracted towards things related to soul searching. I feel very lonely sometimes. I know one thing I want the most. And that is that I wanna move out of this city to a bigger one like Mumbai or Delhi. But even then , I feel so lost sometimes . As if I know nothing at all about myslef. I feel sad and lonely and lost. Peace nowhere around. Is it the factthat I like to victimize myself. Is it a guilty pleasure sorata thingy. May be.

I like to be sad and keep to myself. I like to be lonely and travelling. I mean I love travelling alone. There is nothing that gives me more pleasure than that. Probably thats why I liked that movie Eat.Pray.Love so fulfilling. So I started readding the book. Which is even more wonderful. Everyone should read it once. Not beacuse its a great story. But its just so fulfilling and it explains that to choose and step up to something that you want against all the norms of the society is so difficult that even you dont understand it for a while. But once you get it what you want and not the world thinks is "supposed to be done". It is bliss. True soul searching. !!!

I sometimes keep asking myself what do I want from myself. I mean truly just me. Not my mom dad , family, co-workers , relatives, friends, just myself. And there is just one answer. I want to live alone. All on my own. I wanna be on myself and enjoy life to its fullest. I want to live in abroad. Enjoy my life. Be with friends, go out , fall in love and earn a lot and shop and just liv ea life onmy own for a while. Bachelor and very very happy. Yes. This is what I want. I dont want to get married now. Only because , this dream of living alone on my own and earn and spen and enjoy a great metropolitan life is a dream that is still unfulfilled. I cant move on in life untill I be in Mumbai or New York and be on my own and enjoy and earn.


God please help me fulfiull my draem as soon as possible. Pls let this be my birthday gift for 2011. That I get transferred to HR dept in my company in Mumbai. Please . I want to to be the in the HR dept in my company working in Mumbai. And enjoy my life to the fullest.

Harrami mujhe kehta tha ki " tum pagal wagal ho kya??" kuch bhi important hota toh bhi call nahin karta tha. apni convenience ans sex needs ke liye hi mujhse baat karta tha bas. I remember ki poore din call nahin karta tha ...main karoo toh mujhe ignore karta tha. and phir raat ko bhi ghar aa kar tv se chipak jaata tha. baad mein jab raat ke 11 baj jate the toh mujhe call karke pehle ek do idhar udhar ki baatein karta tha and phir start ho jata tha fone sex ke liye. khud mujhse ek baar i love u tak nahin kehta tha aagey ho kar. i dont knw how did i fall for such cheapskate.
jab main ladti thi toh chup ho jaata. aur kamina saala haraami, jab main usse ro ro kar poochhti ki do u luv me toh kehta "i like u". WHAT WAS I THINKING.??? usn emujh eapni paav ki jooti ke tarah dutkara aur main haath dho kar uske peechey pad gayi thi.pagal ho gayi thi uske liye.

ab uski orkut pics dekhti hoon toh lagta hai ki maine uske liye haan hi kaise kar di? what was i thinking. actually woh bahut smart tha. pehle toh acchi acchi baatein karke meri din raat taarif karke mujhse haan bulwa li aur phir apna rang dikhane laga saala chutiya. kutte ki aulaad. maa saali haraami bewakoof aurat thi. usne apni asliyat jaldi dikha di. ab bhugtenge saale kutte ke aulaad. saale maa ki aankh.


uss backword LS do word angrezi ke sahi se na bol paane waale ladke se maine shaadi ki haan kaise kar di. usne bas meri tareef kar kar ke mujhe bottle mein utaar liya tha. i was so stupid. anyways thank God i got saved.!!!

uski maa ne jo kiya it was not acceptable at all. uski maa ne teem mahino mein mera jeen a mishkil karr diya tha. har din kuch na kuch naya panga le kar aa jati thi. i had to put it to an end. also, the problem was that the guy was always listening ti his morher only. thouh he knew ki jo uski maa kar rahi hai woh galat hai he cud defend me or take my side kyunki ultimately woh uski maa thi.

i cud not believe i usne mujhse kaha ki shaadi mein kuch toh dena padta hi hai na...hmne bhi jab meri di ki shaadi hui thi toh aisa hio kiya tha. that means he was justifying the fact ki uski maa ne bihighmangi laga rakhi hai woh theek hi hai.

uski maa toh thi hi such a mangti. abhi se bolne lagi thi ladka hona chahiye. shaadi ke dahej ke alawa baaki ke holi diwali ke riti riwaj and first kid ke samay lene den ki baatien karne lagi thi. msaali thi hi anpadh ........shayad pehli paas bhi nhai hogi. kabhi school ka muh bhi nahin dekha tha usne. beta padhe ke engr ban gaya toh poori family apne aap ko classic metropolitan smajhne lagi thi. it was a mistake in the first place to say yes to such a backward, kheti karne wali, gawar and anpadh family. wht were we thinking.
woh poori tarah se hi khoon pee jate mera. aakhir the toh villagers only. uski maa ne sa logo se meri maa ne se kaha ki ladki kuch layegi nahi. how cud she. openly??? besharam aurat.
hum logo ne toh phir bhi respect rakh kar baat khinchi nahi. but bet abhi maa ka saath lene laga aur kehne laga ki shaadi mein kuch dena padta hi hai na. oh such bunch a losers.


pfir bhi humne toh socha ki koi baat nahi. par uski maa ne toh koi kami nahin chhodi ki hum doubt mein rahein. meri mom ko fone karke kehti hai ki apni beti ko tameez sikhao and kaho ki badtameezi na karein. mere bete ko mere khilaaf na bhadkaye kyunki mera bet asirf meri hi sunega aur shaadi ke baad bhi sirf mera hi rahega. i really wished that i had recorded that call and sent a copy of it to that whore's bloody bastard son.

us aurat ki himmmat bhi kaise ho gayi mere ghar walo ko dhamkane ki? yeh logo ko aisa hi laga tha ki hum toh dab jayenge kyunki hum ladki wale hain. bhagwaan ne mujhe aise ghar jane se bacha liya. yeh maa bete mil ke mera aur mere ghar walo ka khoon pee jate. aaj meri koi galati nahin thi toh mera maa ko fone karke sunaya unhone. pata nahin kal ko agar mujhse koi mistake ho jati toh mera kya karte??? just imagin ....my life wud have become hell with that son of a bitch.


Thank you God!!!